Friday, March 23, 2012

Lessons Learned



We've been having some teething issues here around the Fohner Pad lately.

Well, some of it is teething & some of it has to do with this.

Umm, I thought that junk didn't start until those "terrible two's" hit.


Anyway, I'm sitting here listening to Abram whine on the kitchen floor...

{I know, bad mommy}

But when I try to hold the sucker he either bites me or squirms out of my arms & continues whining or crying.


He's fed & he's changed, though he did wake up early from his nap.

He's had Ibuprofen & teething tablets.

He just had his 15 month well baby appointment where his ears were checked & he was given a clean bill of health.

I have no clue what could be wrong.


But you know what?

Sometimes it feels good to cry.

To just let it all out.


I'm just going to go ahead & say that's what's going on right now.

Or it might have been the fact that I will not let him go near the stool he was attempting to monkey climb up.


All well.


This reminds me of a time last week that was very similar.

Everything appeared to be all right.

But suddenly, I became just as frustrated as he was that I nothing I did was snapping Abram out of his funk...


So I cried with him.


I sat there...

& held him...

& just cried.


And after a while, we both looked at each other, brushed away our sniffles, & then he just looked at me like, "see, Mom...didn't that feel good to just let our emotions hang all out there for a few minutes?"

It reminded me of those verses in Ecclesiastes that talk about there being a time for everything...time to weep, a time to mourn.


And thankfully, those verses also mention there being times to heal, to build, to laugh, to embrace, to mend, to love, & to dance (wait a minute, does God really intend for a time of dancing to apply to me, because He knows how I dance & it's not pretty).



Oh, the lessons we learn from those who have been in the world for much less time than ourselves.



And I'm very much looking forward to everything else this little munchkin will teach me along the way.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Yup, He's a Boy...


bang...bang...bang...bang

...yup, he's a boy.

Is it weird that I'm looking forward to more things in our house getting beat up/destroyed/messed with?

And with this nice weather we've been having lately it means puddle jumping, mud pies, worm-finding, sidewalk chalk, trips to the pool, & other very messy things are in store for us soon  :)

and.i.cannot.wait!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Happy St. Patty's Day!

celebrating some Irish luck in 2010...



our fuzzy-headed little leprechaun in 2011...



& picking clovers with "Mommy's Little Charmer" in 2012...



Raising a glass to a lifetime of celebrating with our favorite little Irishman  :)

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

CHEEEEKS...

...& boy,

does this kid have them!
(according to my iPhone)


 ...sleepy cheeks


 ...shady cheeks


...sloppy cheeks 


...smiley cheeks 


...pouty cheeks 


....cuddly cheeks 


...smirky cheeks 


...feasting cheeks 


...morning cheeks


...Bateman cheeks (me at 12 months)


Yup, he's got 'em!



& somehow they help make my world make more sense  :)

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Loss

I've debated posting this.

Written & re-written this post again and again.

We haven't necessarily wanted to share this with the entire anyone-can-find-this-on-google internet.


But,


then I thought about things we have shared before...

here...and here...and here...and here.

And I thought about other things that aren't easily talked about or shared.

And how beneficial it would be for other couples to know that while things like infertility or miscarriage aren't topics that are readily shared, they are hurts that affect more people than most realize.


It's challenging thinking about the fact that we should have had a picture like this taken on Thursday...


...that was Abram at 6 weeks & 1 day.


On Thursday we were supposed to be 6 weeks & 1 day along with this precious little embryo...



On or around Halloween we were supposed to be taking a picture like this...



But on January 25th, a pregnancy began that wouldn't end the way Abram's did.

About two weeks ago, I suddenly didn't feel pregnant anymore

& when we got the phone call that we'd have to try again, we wept.


Though we weren't very far along, we had so many hopes & dreams for this baby...

we had taken the same pictures we took everyday we entered a new week of my pregnancy,
just like we did with Abram...

we had talked about names, mostly boy names because somehow I knew that this baby was a boy,
just like I did with Abram...

I had found a verse in the book of Timothy that for some reason I kept turning to over & over, making me call this little one Timothy before we even had any sort of confirmation that he was a boy,
just like I did with Abram...

we had truly believed this baby would make it through all the odds stacked against him,
just like we did with Abram.


But, for whatever reason, this baby wasn't meant to join our family this side of Heaven.


But,

everyday gets a little easier.


And,

we can try again.


We have another transfer day set...

And another 3 embryos to choose from.


In the meantime,

please know that we decided to share this in the hope that it may encourage others who have experienced similar battles that they are not alone.


And,

as an encouragement to Matthew & I that this little miracle...


once looked like this...



And,

that Lord willing,

our next precious embryo(s) will, too.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

COUSINSFEST 2012

COUSINSFEST 2012

Why in all caps do you ask?

Because it was that awesome.

And despite the fact that our Cali cousins & their spouses weren't able to join us (as well as the youngest cousin of the crew...college girl said she had too much work to do, boo) we had an absolute blast.

A little February beach wiffle ball on VA Beach?  I think so.

P.S. My team won b/c I am the more athletic Fohner  ;)

I put that winky face for Matthew's benefit (to make him think like I was kidding)

{I'm not}



The following were taken by my sidekick, the iPhone, in the car on the way to dinner on the 2nd night of the weekend.  Most of these were taken immediately after I shoved the camera in my subjects faces while waiting for the automatic flash to blind them...







I don't think Scotty was expecting this shot...





nor Derek on this one...






I have THE BEST cousins...don't even try to argue with me on that.